Every man dies – Not every man really lives

In honor of Stephen Sutton I decided to put a bucket list of my own up and as I complete it then il put a picture up. I think its really important to live for now. Would you really not regret not doing enough with your life?



1. Run a marathon
2. Scuba Dive in the sea
3.  Go Ski-ing
4. Walk the wall of China
5. Go Skydiving
6. Fly in a hotair balloon
7. Sing to an audience
8. Experience sunrise/sunset
9. See the northern lights
10. Witness a solar eclipse
11. Go Stargazing
12. Threw a massive party
13. Get a makeover
14. Go on a blind date
15.Go on a road trip
16. Act in a film
17. Knit a scarf
18.Visit a quiet natrual place
19. Try life at being a vegetrain
20. Get a cherry blossom tree
21. Go on a picnic you organized
22.Fly first class
23. Fly in a helicoptor
24. go on a cruise in the ocean
25. See the Mona Lisa painting
26. Have my dream bedroom
27. Go on a qaudbike adventure
28. Enjoy a spa weekend

Whats in my bag???

                                          Whats in My Bag.

Hello!! This is my version of whats in my bag! I couldn't bring myself to talk the camera! I am way to shy! I intend to change that between now and the end of summer! So let the fun begin!

 This is my bag, it costed me £19.99 from New Look I have had it for about 3 months now, prior to that I had a big hoody I used to carry money in and a phone! 

Next up is my makeup bag! If any of you know me, you'll know that this is pretty alien to me! I got this particular bag in 2006 at a friends 13th Birthday bash, it was my table gift, to this day we still remain best friends! 

Mascara-this is the colosall volume mascara by mabelline (new york) 

Eyeliner! Kohl Black, I love this and it stays on most of the day to, I spray hairspray and pop my face eyes open in a small amount of the spray and it make it stick all day! If you have any other methods feel free to leave a comment!

My silver liquid eyeliner from Avon

 This is what i use to dab on my foundation! I use this because really, who wants foundation covered hands!

 I find my foundation helps covers my scars from spots, this is Rimmel lasting finish 25hours.

 My blue pallet of eyeshadow

 A hair bobble! You never know when your going to need one and as someone with natrally curly hair, I need one many times!!!

My mobile phone! I love this thing, its like my saviour!! It is a galaxy s4 in white <3 

 My river island purse! This cost me £17 and has served me well! 

 Im still on a battle with the weight so this is my lunch for tomorrow...yummy, minestrone!!

My notepad I use to help me stay organised.im also going to write down blogging ideas!!!

Currently that is all in my bag!! I shall update! Maybe i may even be able to do it on video! Who knows.

Watch this space guys.

H x

My Time As a Kiwi!!

No body reading this knows me! I could be anybody really... a pop star in a secret identity, a nanny mcphee person, a complete tool with no life. I could be all those things, but im not. I'm just a girl from Cheshire.

Over the years, I have had severe confidence issues due to a huge amount of bullying because people thought i was ''emo'' I really don't believe in that word, or chav, loner, non of the labels. I was okay at first, I had a friend, but when I was 13, I flew to New Zealand on a wonderful, life changing (in many ways) holiday! I did my very first bungy jump, that was fantastic! When i returned from New Zealand, my friend had deserted me and left to all the popular group, that's how it all started. To this day, although i let it slide, we still don't speak.

In 2013 I got an opportunity after I had finished uni to go to New Zealand to live for a few months, haha, a few months turned into a year! Little shy girl was off on her way out! I really came out of my shell over there. I made new friends and went of travelling, I lived with a range of different people, that was amazing, and scary to. I fed and elephant at a zoo, I stayed up all night on a beach and watch the sun rise in the morning with a selection of new friends. My best achievement was I managed to loose 4 and a half stone over there too!! I forced my self to get over my fear of water and started swimming 66 lengths most evenings. I get what your thinking, why would you spend your time swimming in a country you don't get to see most times... well I became an Au Pair to two wonderful children in Hamilton, I love them dearly, close to what i think its going to feel with my own children when i get around to that part!! I lived life there on the down low, I did go surfing out there though! That was interesting! 

I then went on to travel right down the bottom of the south island and I stayed the last month of my time in New Zealand in Milford Sound! I truly think that I will never find another more beautiful place in this Earth, if I do, I'll be one lucky lady! I spent 4 hours a day cleaning bathrooms out! The rest of the time myself and my friend went out exploring! Walking up waterfalls, going under waterfalls, beach walks, glow worm hunting and of course many a piss-up in the local with my new lifetime friends! 

New Zealand has really made me a better person, and so much more confident in myself. It was not all perfect I had to over come allot of things! When I left, I had to have my mother or dad or brother assist me to a neighbors because I was so scared of doing it myself, NOW , I can say I have traveled the entire world on the way! I ended up staying in a bad family, I learnt to put my foot down and say no im sorry but i cannot stay here, I had to have a biopsy operation on the back of my leg for suspected cancer, I ran low on money. Allsorts happened, but I over came it all and I loved it, I'm greatful for every moment I spent in this place. 
Thank you New Zealand.

Thinking time.

Have you ever noticed that you can go about daily living, go to work,school, where ever you designated day place is, and enjoy it! Get on with your life and just not have a care in the world!

Then when you want to continue that moment with peace and serinity...glass of wine (in my case) then when you are having that moment what happens? You think! Its either at that point in time or when you want to sleep!yay!
I think about
Life in general
Parents
Relasionships
Death
Natrual disasters

Just got to stick it out and think good thimgs before you think to much into i think. Otherwise. You get to caught up and stressed.
Much love x

Lets answer somethings...and updates :)

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No. I was named after a tree, because it was Christmas when i was born!

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
I don't remember. Which guess is a really good thing! I like this whole being happy thing :D

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes.Sometime.. can be so bad sometimes though! Like every ones i suppose though.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
Definitely roasted ham cooled down<3 lush! 

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
No. But i was a nanny to children and I love them like they are my own.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes. I wish more people would say that, but still. better to have a few close friends than a million fakes.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
yes, some people don't get my sarcasm though!

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yep they have been good to me

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Yes! I have done 7 altogether now!!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
Oatmeal.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yes.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Yes. Some people look at me in amazement at the things i lift!

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
COOKIE DOUGH! I am the female cookie monster

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their eyes.

15. RED OR PINK?
Pink. All about pink :D

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My bad habits.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
deceased friends and relatives.
Out of the living, my brother.

18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MC KENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?
Mindful eating.

19. WHAT COLOUR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
I'm not wearing any. CONFESSION! MY FEET ARE NAKED!

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A spicy Doritos... is it just me or do they really burn?!!

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
My cat, she is purring.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
Purple! Dark and mysterious yet happy and quirky.

23. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Petrol...I'm not a weirdo i swear its just a lush smell.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mother.

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Mountain. Imagine the view!

26. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Horse jumping. Love it.

27. HAIR COLOUR?
Brown red.

28. EYE COLOUR?
Brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No.

30. FAVOURITE FOOD?
Salads.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings. however i am prone to the odd horror! yaw! 

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
the croods with my uncle ;D 

33. WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
grey and pink onsie

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer. I love the outdoors and i get to dress nice n cute :D

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs that lead to kisses.

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
CHOCOLATE CAKE!

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
cardio i like to think i am healthy

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
"The Big Disconnect" by Steiner-Adair.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Purple dots 

42. FAVOURITE SOUND?
The wind and rain tapping against the windows, i love it.

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles. No  need to say more on that matter.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
New zeland FOR  a whole year on my own, from the UK.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I'm good at painting, drawing and jewelry making.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Cheshire

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
UK

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
Brown

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Blue :)

50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
Sort of. 


Feel free to ask more questions! l will be writing more and putting regular videos :)! My first one tomorrow. Whats in my Bag. Start it simple.